Choppy Waters

You call me out upon the waters…the great unknown where feet may fail. And there I find You in the mystery. In oceans deep my faith will stand.

I have struggled to find an image that depicts how I feel at the moment. I searched for “Calming” and “Tranquil” but they just did not resonate with me at all. I realise that is probably how I WANT to feel, not how I am feeling. Then I came across this image with a fabulous quote underneath and that says it all for me.

And what, you may ask, is making me feel like this? Well a couple of weeks ago my lovely mum had a stroke. And, as she is the sole carer for my dad who has Alzheimer’s, I have certainly had my work cut out. It was devastating to see mum when I first went over to A&E. However, the good news is she is making a brilliant recovery. She doesn’t live that close to me so it is an 80 mile round trip every time I go over. Dad is in respite care and we will have to get him permanently settled as mum will be unable to care for him now but the place where he is seems good and the staff are lovely.

When things like this happen I definitely lean on my faith and I love the quote above which is from a Hillsong United song. I am also thankful for all the lovely people at mum’s church who are praying for her and visiting regularly and taking things over that she needs when I can’t get there. It is a scary thing when something happens to your parents. It really hits home that our time on this earth will come to an end and as an only child I am finding it difficult as there are no other siblings who are going through this with me. But, as in all trials, you take one step at a time. I can’t think too far ahead or I will feel overwhelmed.

So, dear hearts, I am trying to be gentle with myself at the moment. I know I need to look after myself better. So I am sending out positive thoughts into the ether to anyone else who is struggling with personal circumstances at the moment, whatever, they may be.