Choppy Waters

choppy waters

You call me out upon the waters…the great unknown where feet may fail. And there I find You in the mystery. In oceans deep my faith will stand.

I have struggled to find an image that depicts how I feel at the moment. I searched for “Calming” and “Tranquil” but they just did not resonate with me at all. I realise that is probably how I WANT to feel, not how I am feeling. Then I came across this image with a fabulous quote underneath and that says it all for me.

And what, you may ask, is making me feel like this? Well a couple of weeks ago my lovely mum had a stroke. And, as she is the sole carer for my dad who has Alzheimer’s, I have certainly had my work cut out. It was devastating to see mum when I first went over to A&E. However, the good news is she is making a brilliant recovery. She doesn’t live that close to me so it is an 80 mile round trip every time I go over. Dad is in respite care and we will have to get him permanently settled as mum will be unable to care for him now but the place where he is seems good and the staff are lovely.

When things like this happen I definitely lean on my faith and I love the quote above which is from a Hillsong United song. I am also thankful for all the lovely people at mum’s church who are praying for her and visiting regularly and taking things over that she needs when I can’t get there. It is a scary thing when something happens to your parents. It really hits home that our time on this earth will come to an end and as an only child I am finding it difficult as there are no other siblings who are going through this with me. But, as in all trials, you take one step at a time. I can’t think too far ahead or I will feel overwhelmed.

So, dear hearts, I am trying to be gentle with myself at the moment. I know I need to look after myself better. So I am sending out positive thoughts into the ether to anyone else who is struggling with personal circumstances at the moment, whatever, they may be.

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7 thoughts on “Choppy Waters

  1. Hi Corinne, I can just imagine how you must be feelIng, both my Dad and Dave had strokes. It’s a devastating thing but I am pleased to hear your Mum is making a good recovery. Perhaps this was natures way of saying ‘enough’
    as she must have been stressed looking after your Dad. Don’t overdo it and my thoughts are with you all. Lots of love, Jill xx
    Ps. The stroke association in Worcester were brilliant and I think Dave still pops in to see them from time to time.

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  2. I love the above quote Corinne ….. and my heart goes out to you and I can understand all you have written….. I am so glad your mum is recovering well and that she – and your dad – are getting good support…… You are a caring daughter…. as you say, be gentle with yourself and don’t forget to look after you too x

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  3. Love and blessings Corinne, so sorry that you are going through another difficult time. I hope that your Mum will make a good recovery and that you will be able to find the strength to cope with it all. Thinking of you.xxx

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  4. Hi Corinne. Visiting from August Break. I’m sorry to hear about your mom. And the news was made even more complicated in hearing about your dad. I’m still quite blessed to have both parents AND grandparents alive, so I can only imagine what you are going through. As my family members age, I continuously hope and pray for more time with the people I love, because I know that time with them isn’t guaranteed. 😦 Your post is a reminder of that. I hope you and your family are doing well and that you are finding a way to cope with all that has been given to you.

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